I never ever ever ever ever ever usually spill my feelings to a bunch of strangers online that I don't even know - especially on a MGS forum (no offence - I'm a loser too)..

BUT, I feel like I'm bottling so much in at the moment I feel it's appropriate I just let it all out. I don't even care if this thread gets no replies and drops to page 39849438948439 in this section.

I am so fucking annoyed. At everything. I went on holiday to La Gomera this summer with some friends [place in north africa] and it was one of the best experiences of my life - although since I've come back off theres been reprecussions.

Some of the people I went on Holiday with, I no longer view as friends. I don't outright hate them, I get along with them for the sake of going to college and being in there classes. So basically, on Holiday - I went a bit mental, as you do. Got absolutley wasted more or less every night, and did a shit load of cocaine. That was my first mistake - me and my friend who dabbled in some of the white stuff got absolutley demonised for it when it somehow came out, we were made out to be fucking crackheads who don't deserve the respect from the lowest of the low. Now personally, I apologised for doing it to one of the girls I went on holiday with - [it was her Dads mansion that I did it in, and that we was staying in for the duration of the holiday] And I thought it would be left at that, but nooooooooooo. Her mother works in the college I go too, and she's taken it upon herself to blab it around to some of the staff, so my head of college and fuck knows who else now know most of my personal life that happened on holiday. Now, I know some of you are going to absolutley tear me to shreds cause you don't agree with me doing coke - but it's my life and I don't answer to anybody. So for someone to be so unprofessional and childish to get into a teenagers business and spout it around the school fucks me off to the highest degree. Alot of people who I don't speak too and don't wish to speak too, now have more of an idea of my life than most other people, and that really pisses me off.

Now, to couple with that - me and my friends got accused of trying to break this girl and her boyfriend up on holiday. Which of course is completley untrue. So that's even shit added to the tale. The fucking nerve of this prick telling his girlfriend, and his girlfriends mother that it was his own so called 'friends' who was in his ear telling him to break up with her is unbelievable. What's even worse, he was the one who was fucking telling me and some of the other guys that he was going to break up with her when it comes to the end of the holiday. Un-fucking-beliveable. So now, In college - life is made pretty fucking uncomfortable for me. It's alright for my other friends, they've left college now, but now I've found out that everything has been blabbed about to the teachers imagine how I feel going into some of there lessons? Made out to be some sort of demon who deserves no respect.

Now, this would normally be manageble for a guy like myself, I tend to take these things in my stride and forget about them, but that's not the only thing thats fucked up at the moment. I have to start to go and see my fucking pyschatrist again, which is great, cause he's she no help at all. There the most boring piece of shit sessions ever and are designed to take money off the depressed and emotionally weak. FOLLOWING ON from this, me and my single mother are going through the worst fucking money problems at the moment and I don't even have the time to get a part time job cause of college to help her with the money. I'm considering dropping out.

Anyways, thanks for reading, and fuck the world.

Good night.

Get some proof of said person's mother spreading vicious rumours about you and sue their asses for deformation of character. Money problems sorted.
Rich kids love cocaine, its best to say away from that stuff. If you bought it yourself, then maybe you shouldn't if you're skint, or you'll end up selling your shoes for half a gram. I've witnessed many go down that slippery slope, despite always claiming they never had a problem. Only rich kids get away with such expensive habits as mummy and daddy will put them in hollywood style rehab clinics when they get strung out.
As for the shrink, well you're on your own there. Its hard to get out of therapy once they've got you on that sofa and talking about your childhood. On the flipside you can make yourself out to be massively depressed and score plenty of vallium and prescription drugs to sell. Again, money problems sorted.

Personal question, how old are you Null, something I've never known?


Anyways, yeah as Paper Shapes said, get proof of this teacher spreading the rumours, record witnesses telling you she told them etc.

I feel sorry for your predicament, but the cocaine was a stupid idea, I'm not shredding you, thats all I'll say about that, were you drunk when you decided to take it?

Psychiatrist, never had one, but from what people tell me, and on TV and such, it seems like hell, people trying to pick you apart mentally.

Hope you get through mate.

Went halfs on a few grams with a few mates, I was drunk when I took it but it's not something I totally regret, I'm not a regular cocaine user I do it in moderation from time to time - Like Shapes said, I by no means have the money to do it all the time. I should stick to the good old council estate weed.

The thing is, what this teacher is saying is true. So how could I sue? I just don't want my private business banded about to my college teachers.

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Shyne I'm 17, 18 next Tuesday.

It doesn't matter if it's true or not, it's still deformation of character, spreading nasty rumours to intentionally alter people's perception of you is something you can take them to the cleaners for, particularly as it can hinder your education. Teachers often forget that they were kids once, and think that kids shouldn't do stupid shit, even thats the only way we ever truly learn.

Cocaine's illegal, possession of a Class A drug means that suing only creates more problems.

Are you being forced to see the psychiatrist? It sounds like it's a colossal waste of money, so if it's at all avoidable, I'd get out of it to save some cash. With regard to your school situation, it sounds like you're just going to have to earn the respect back by doing well, not stepping out of line, and all that jazz.

As for the money situation, look at what sorts of things you're paying monthly for and try to pare it down to as little as possible. Cable is often a huge bill, and so is the internet. Yeah, it blows that you can't have the internet, but school is far, far more important in the long run.

This is cobb's secret way of getting me off the forum :D

On the pyschatrist thing, put it this way - I'm being strongly reccomended to go back to one AGAIN. It's not costing any money because I'm getting it free on the NHS cause I'm a poor mofo.

I hate all that depression shit. I use to be on anti-depressants but I seriously thought I was passed that, going back to see a threapist or whatever you want to call it, is like taking a step back for me.

Possession fo class A drugs is only aplicable when, you know, the person actually has it on them. What on earth does that have to do with teachers spreading vicious rumours? Deformation of character is deformation of character, regardless of whether something is true or not. He has a right to not have his dirty linen aired in public, particularly by people whose job is to protect students from that sort of discrimination.

There is no way, that they can tie him to the cocaine, in a way that would have any effect that would hold up in court. I think you should sue her as well. And although I don't like the whole doing drugs thing, its not fair to you, that your life is taking this turn.

Might I add that nobody here is a lawyer, nor is anyone (to my knowledge) studying to be one. If you're going to considering filing suit, consult a real lawyer first.

That sucks dude i have the some problem of "friends"not being able to shut there fucking mouth, once one thing goes down in my small ass shithole of a town everyone knows about it the same day, ask for the cocaine ive dabbled in it before its not bad as long as you dont get addicted and only do it once in a while but unfortuantly in this government controlled bullshit propaganda world we live in if you even think about doing any type of drug people look at you as if your the most unholy peice of shit on earth

very touching story mate i can fully understand what your going though and how you feel, you put that across very well.

i also have done sniff before its a very strange trip. i can understand why you did it and i done it for the very same reason. im very open to trying new things and new experiencesand i supose i will be like that for the rest of my life. i also done it with my mate and we also split it between us two one night at a party. it was just a one off thing like the reason you did it

i see nothing wrong with experimenting with new drugs but i relise how many do. aboutthe rehab and such, please dont do anything harsh mate, just sit it out however stressful and uncomfatable you feel and get it over with and make it clear that you are shipshape :) donttry and tackle everything at once such as the money issues and college, take it one step at a time and get your education out of the way first asit will earn u lots of dosh in the long run :) just take it easy and makesure you stay relaxed and melo an dont let anyone get to you, its your life and let them see that by not showing any emotion over the subject

you sound likea good bloke and it will be ashameif you let this whole ordeal effect you

hold tight mate :thumb: