...I live with this condition that causes my brain and body to enter at random and often times after physical activity where simply for a period of 36 to 48 hours I can not sleep at all. My mind gets restless, I have what is termed mini-seizures over various muscles of my body, and I get very paranoid. Sound like a drug problem... well it kind of is related to the after effects of being the son of a hardcore heroin addict.

Basically it's like this... I have nerves in my brain just like everyone else except for one small problem. They have a small short circuit in them in the electrical signal controls. If under stress, mental strain, or even periods of boredom, I get jittery, feel anxiety, and have bouts of paranoia. This causes my nerves to send ultra high levels of electrical activity that once started takes roughly 48 hours to drain enough of my energy to force my body into sleep.

My dad before I was born did a LOT of drugs and it in turn affected me big time. I am completely immune to the effects of morphine and other OTC painkillers with the exception of aspirin (I have no idea but its the only thing that barely begins to work though it stops soon after). For me I literally have to take painkillers like vicodin, oxicontin, codine, and other normally addictive painkillers to get relief when I am in pain. Bad part is they also make me drowsy. I've actually been given medically monitored dozes of heroin while once administered in the hospital because the morphine did nothing. At the age of 19 I went in for a study and was found to have a genetic abnormality caused by a parent using drugs prior to my conception. the doctor supervising the study asked if a parent had been using drugs before I was born and I informed him my dad did.

Kind of puts some of my behavior over the years into perspective as well. I'm one majorly screwed up dude thanks to my dumbass dad who couldn't keep the needle out of his arm.

I'm sorry.

That makes the medical problems of everyone else on this forum look like shit.

Ahh fuck. Sounds quite deep. At least you are not like your father....

Yeah, I'm sorry about that, you may not want or need it, but you have my sympathies for what you've got, and why you have it.

Take care,
The Black Devil of Outer Heaven

You've still always seemed like a good member here despite the possible problems this may cause. I hope you can cope with it in the future too.

That's some deep stuff there. Well, from what I can tell, you seem to deal with it pretty well. In the sense that you don't complain about it, and it doesn't seem to affect your posting habits. Isn't there some kind of medication you can get to help you sleep when this happens?

But then, I thought certain drugs didn't work, or weren't strong enough?

I hate being restless, I can't imagine that being a constant. :(

That was just for the relief of pain, but sleeping aids might not work also. :(

Damn sorry to hear that dude, I never knew if you take drugs before you have kids it could affect your kids a lot. Grr that sucks man well at least you didn't turn like your father than it should of been a lot worst. Well take care bud.

my sympthys mate, i really feel bad about this as you really seem like a genuine nice bloke, taking herion is screwed up and ill never really understand how you feel, not alot of people will and i think your a really amazing guy for dealing with it so well, i truely admire the way you cope with it its an inspiration for alot of people.

seriously i know people with just ADHD and they won't stop blaming that for whenever something bad happens to them, continue doing what your doing man, and let it affect you in least ways you can

your paying for someones elses bad doings, but just remeber the more important things in life :)

wow really goes to show you how you can screw up your child, even before they're born. :(

I feel for you man.

Not to derail the topic but this statement is so full of shit that I don't know where to begin.

Wait, that were a way to begin it. Yeah, I'm sticking to that.

Seriously, you got no idea what different members of this forum may or may not suffer from. Don't talk out of your ass.

I'm sure you didn't mean to derail the topic...but it kinda does. <_<

I mean, from what that looked like, your lashing out at someone in a topic that someone else made to talk about his medical problems. And so far, everyone has been sympathetic and understanding. So what if maybe Puppy doesn't have all the facts? He doesn't have to. It was just a statement, none of us here have to be 100% correct all the time. You could have PM'd him or something.

Anyway, don't start a fight over this, I just thought I'd say something. -_-

Tough break mate. For a moment it sounded like you were talking about insomnia? but obviously not.

It's like having ADHD, Insomnia, and Paranoid-Schizophrenia all in one bastardly little package that creeps up on you all at once.

The worst part is the ideas that sometimes creep into my head are some that scare me. The dreams I get while in the downtime are no better.

It's really terrifying to a guy to awaken in a dream and find that his body is not his own but someone else's and you are powerless to awaken yourself and must ride out the nightmare till you wake up and endure what happens in the dream feeling everything regardless of discomfort, pain, terror, etc.

Night terrors for me... well... they just down right suck. I'm talking the good ol' demons eating me kind too. Not fun.

damn......that must really suck......

i know what you mean by them night terrors, i had them as a kid and still can't forget about them and they were sometimes so fucked up i start sketching out if i start thinking about them again.

and in every single one of them i knew it was a dream, i just knew it wasn't real.... but you still sit though it and keep telling yourself to wake up in bed..but you can't because your half yourself and half your subconcious mind, theres no way out of i, and really these dreams i had, no person should of have to gone though them at a young age...

That sucks. Being too resteless to sleep must be torture. Badluck.

When I was about 11, I stopped having nightmares. I used to have the worst kind of ones. Not being able to move, as some murderer walks up to me. I'd literally wake up with a sweat, just like they do in the movies. Then I basically just stopped having nightmares, and I very rarely remmeber my dreams either.

Sleep is by far the most important thing for my body. Yeah I really enjoy eating food, and I cant stand being hot. But doing my final year of school, I really need to be sleeping well and ready for school. To be to anxious to sleep just sounds like the worst thing someone could suffer.

you know, that sounds freakishly familiar to what happens to me. regrettably my father did a shit load drugs, also, before (and after) me and my brother were born. I can relate to the night terrors and the jittery feelings, along with the countless sleepless nights, sometimes the night mares scare me from just going to sleep in general. once, I had a nightmare that I was pinned down and eaten by a pack of wolf things, and it lasted all through the night. the pain feels so real when it's happening, It kinda scares me. :huh: