Framework of Abuse (By Richard Evans)

Having help with my issues
Most of my problems have been cleared up
But some of these people are falling short
And what they’re doing for me now just isn’t enough
I still wonder why I sit alone
Waiting for these problems to reopen and grow
And I still don’t understand
How my bleeding has a meaning
Unless this is the way it’s just supposed to go

Another second passes
And for all the wrong reasons I’m acting tuff
Trying to hide this pain inside
That’s always refusing to ever give up
I don’t want to be just another crisis
Always wanting to be better but always falling short
And I’m uninterested about being that person
Who never tries harder
And then always ends up saying
I could have been more

You’ve never heard a single word I’ve ever said
Because you’re always the first person I know
To put both their hands over their head
You’ve never cared who I was
And every word that I whispered to you
You seemed to never trust
I can’t do anything now to make you understand
How you’re still smothering me without your hands

Against my will you’ve pushed me to the edge
And once again I’ve done exactly what you’ve said
So how much more now can I take
Before I become a person like you waiting to break

Early signs are telling me new paths have opened
So I push myself out into the chase
Only to find my unschooled emotions
Are working against me for old times sake
How long will I protest all that I am
To undergo this pain within
Because it seems I’m walking on the thinnest type-rope
In hope of just breaking the same old string

Sitting down chatting to friends who don’t exist
Expecting them to understand
I talk to them holding back acting tight lipped
Hiding from them who I really am
I seem to never be good enough
Something’s wrong and I can’t explain
How I’m the strongest out of all of them
Whilst at the same time
The most vulnerable to all this pain

You’ve never heard a single word I’ve ever said
Because you’re always the first person I know
To put both their hands over their head
You’ve never cared who I was
And every word that I whispered to you
You seemed to never trust
I can’t do anything now to make you understand
How you’re still smothering me without your hands

Against my will you’ve pushed me to the edge
And once again I’ve done exactly what you’ve said
So how much more now can I take
Before I become a person like you waiting to break

I was upset and I let nobody know
That I was planning inside to let myself go
And it was strange how none of you saw
You were convincing me I could have been more
And now every second I spend
Is another second that I just can’t bare
Because every time I reach out to help myself
Another part of me again just doesn’t seem to want to care

In a dead end situation
Dead on my feet
Something again was eating away at me
Overcome with fear scared to death of the truth
I made a pact with myself to never become like you
And now everyway in every single way
I’m slowly becoming more distorted inside
And the only way I can ever escape
Is to never again open my eyes

You’ve never heard a single word I’ve ever said
Because you’re always the first person I know
To put both their hands over their head
You’ve never cared who I was
And every word that I whispered to you
You seemed to never trust
I can’t do anything now to make you understand
How you’re still smothering me without your hands

Against my will you’ve pushed me to the edge
And once again I’ve done exactly what you’ve said
So how much more now can I take
Before I become a person like you waiting to break