I am really start to feel crap about life. I got my grandma who just got out of the hospital and to be honest I think she is going to die. Track has been a let down. I got sick during the season and I have had to run and my time has suffered. Life feels like it is in slow motion just like it never wants to just go. I got people dying around me and generly I would feel great about my life but I just don't care anymore. People are complete assholes at my school. I can't do anything about it. We got people getting beat up and hurt just because they did the right thing. It really makes me think . I am tired of people and all I want to do is lay down in silence. I don't know what to do . I kind of want to go on a homicidal rampage.

Welcome to Puberty, my friend.

High school is always a shitty experience. You'll get past it.


But thats the beauty of life. You learn wisdom through suffering. You learn nothing in bliss.

Soak up the pain. Its what's going to mold your character.

Indeed, no person truly understands what life is about without suffering. Every single person who has an easy life becomes an arrogant asshole.

So just continue your life as normal, suffer if you must, but in the end you would have learned many things.

^and how would you know? are you an asshole?

Perhaps judging everyone as the same just because a few people turn asshole after an easy life isn't the smartest thing to do eh?

no one has gone through life without suffering. life is never easy.

Once you get past high school, things to start to look up dude. I gurantee you.

I sense quite a lot of desperation in your post wraith shadow, and I can completely relate with almost every single thing that you’ve said. Depression is a horrible thing and it can affect nearly every aspect of your live. Your job, your family, your friends – there really is no limit to how much damage and pain it can cause you. I have suffered with depression with most of my life and, worryingly, I’ve even attempted to take my own life on a number of occasions. My best advice to you is to see your GP and ask if you could be put on anti-depressants. If you’re not keen on taking drugs however, there’s always the option of seeing a psychologist – and don’t think that that makes you a freak, or messed-up in the head – even the most intelligent people out there sometimes need guidance and help.

Also, I would advise against going on a homicidal rampage. No, that probably isn’t the best idea. Try to keep your emotions in check the best you can, and if you do feel like gong mental, then do something to relieve your aggression, like jujitsu.

Well, I don't have good words of wisdow. First off my postion, In the Persian Gulf Near Iran been on deployment for 5months and i got 2 more to go till I seemy Wife or family. My grandmother has terminal Cancer and i'll be lucky to see her. But anyways, i'm stuck on a ship out to see with no land at 42 days now with people I would rather kill in some really bad ways, if not for sanity. But, "everything looks up" thing yeah if you are smart about what you do afterwards. Now, i joined my military, Navy. So, I can tell you that someone has got it worst than you. Taht's the best way to keep yourself going.. that's what keeps me going with getting into trouble. That all i can say other than just keep your head up. It'll turn out right before long.

Wraith Shadow, I can completely relate to your pain. I am depressed now, but there are times when I realise that there is a way out, there is a happiness. I know it is hard to believe, but you'll make it through this. You are probably thinking;

"that's easy for you to say"

but believe me, I am going hrough it, and being negative doesn't help. I hope you pull through, friend. ;)

Meditate.

And eat some good bars of chocolate... :P

i got my time back up for track today. To me that is extremely important to me.another step to get back on my horse. Everything just seems so cramped anymore. I have homework,track, caring for my sick folks at home and just trying to get enough sleep is a hassle. Some of the adivice said was good and I really started thinking about my life. I realized how good I have it. There are so many out there who HAVE a reason to be depressed.

Glad to hear it.

Keep your chin up.

Didn't read the responses of this page.

Just wanted to wish you the best of luck in sticking in there. Sadly this truly is just part of life, as you get older you'll realize how big of assholes are out there and that it is true that the 'good' guys that try to do good end up getting kicked in the nuts at every turn.

Death is very common once you get to high school plus and in all honesty...most people you know will die. Sorry to say it so bluntly. I had three different best friends in high school...and each one died. Girlfriend died, most of family passed as well.

But the key thing is to hang in there. Personally, I compare life to sports (track for instance) a lot. You've just gotta push through the pain. Don't look back cause that always just slows you up.

Also with track, everybody will have a dark season where all the cards didn't fall the way you wanted em to, but that is life. Just run through the sickness and you'll be better in the end for it. As you get older track will become a stand still. Because instead of fighting to take seconds off you'll time you'll be fighting to get .01 second off instead. So the improvement might not seem visible, but it is there.

It's the circle of life...sadly, it's true. Everybody gets depressed one time in their life...including me. But I get depressed at times, because I feel bad for telling other people to commit suicide. That's another story, so don't follow what I do. Seriously.

I'd just take a nap or walk outside and watch the clouds move and the bird tweet.

my time is going down very fast now. I think being sick for so long didn't help and other things just built on it.

Like I said my time is at a going down fast right now. I am just about below a minute. Almost there (it's gonna happen) Track is what keeps me going.

Try playing a instrument, when I feel fucked up I play guitar. That helps me, without I probably would just cry all day, alright no. Some things in my life I fucking hate but I aint emo, and frankly I hate them. If youre depressed dont seek sympahty in a MGS forum okay? Cause simply what good does it do? Youre talking like a emo who is gonna commit suicide, just think positive. Go play a instrument, find some new cool things. Dont act depressive on the internet to get sympathy, no one here can help you. Only the people in real life, and yeah life is fucking shitty. But I still love it.