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Dec 01
Dream 07
I had him in my sights and I didn't hestitate to pull the trigger when the red dot was pointing at his head. The shot was wide and although I heard the gunshot, no one else seemed to notice. My spotter told me to aim a little higher than what I'm trying to hit. I acknowledged and shot again... again a miss. I didn't know what was going on and the only thing I could see was what was inside my scope. Another shot, another failure..
...I came out of the scope view and viewed my surroundings. Dirt plot, warehouse setting, not used very often, mid-summer weather. I saw my suspect running off and I chased after him. My spotter went after her own target. When I caught up to my target, he turned into a readerboard sign for a store and flew up into the air... when it hit the ground, I treated the sign like any other criminal and I folded part of the sign back so I could handcuff it.
I started to read the sign it's rights...
"You have the right to remain silent... anything you say can, and will, be used against you in a court of law. You have the... the... the..."
...I couldn't remember the rest of the rights. My partner lost her culprit and came over to me. I asked her what the rest of the rights were and well, since I didn't know it... she didn't know it.
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That's all I remember from my dream... I just thought it was cool that I chased down and apprehended a readerboard sign. If that makes any sense...
Nov 29
Dream 06
So, I had a dream and I don't know if this first part is part of that dream but I thought i'd mention it, anyway. I was in a video rental store (Hollywood Video in Hermiston) and I saw my two childhood friends from when I was growing up. Their names are Brian and Jeff. Of course, they didn't look any different because i've never seen them as adults but I was still talking to them like they were adults. Anything after this point is nothingness...
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...however, there was this next part that was quite vivid. It all started from nothingness and I was walked through a hallway and I depended on my night-vision to guide me. I saw ghostlike figures that reminded me of the children from the first Silent Hill and my only reaction was to gasp while trying to kick them away.
Moments later, the lights were all on and I was in a warehouse-like building. To describe it, there were three levels to it and the floors wrapped around the walls and you could see into the middle of it all. If you walked in through the front door, you would see two sets of stairs, leading up to the levels. One on the left and one on the right. I was up on the second level and I walked to the edge where I could see down into the space between the sets of stairs and there was a monster there reminiscent of Nemesis from Resident Evil or a Super Mutant from Fallout 3.
He looked up at me and I began to run and I looked back at where I was standing; he teleported there instantly but I was already down on the bottom floor. He summoned several enemies that came swarming down the stairs and I, (or someone I was watching?), vanquished them in a Fable 2 or Dynasty Warriors style.
This part of the dream is really fuzzy but I believe I got to the Nemesis guy and I attacked him but the next thing I knew; I had a big slice of ham in my hands and for some reason, that was the way to kill the monster. I tore the ham in half and began eating it. It was very difficult so it was going to take me a while. This whole time, bad guys were coming after me...
...but then, I looked across to the second level (I was up on the third, now) and I saw someone I knew from my past. His name was "JJ" and he was tall with blonde hair. He started coming after me but I ran to the other side of the third level and I placed the remainder of the ham in a filing cabinet. JJ had caught up with me and was trying to get into the filing cabinet to take the ham back. I fought back and after a brief struggle, I tossed him over the edge of the railing and he fell, like a rag doll, to the bottom floor, landing on his face. I killed him.
I looked to my left and somehow, Plankton from the Spongebob Squarepants show was there... except he looked lifelike... not lifelike as in what a real plankton looks like but what he might look like if his characteristic representation was manifested in reality. He was coming after the ham, as well. I had to stop him. I grasped Plankton in my hands and I can describe him as a giant cylindrical green grape. I think I broke him in half and that was...
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...the end of my dream.
Nov 16
Dream 05
Warning: There is nothing that entertaining about this dream... I just wanted to transcribe this somewhere so I could read it, later. There are videos for reference, however, if you are masochistic and want to read about somebody else's dream.
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I was standing outside near a facility close to a lake and I was simply staring off into the stretch of beautiful water. This place seemed like some kind of tourist trap. Someone I recognize from my math class was off to the right staring at the same thing I was staring at. Suddenly, part of the mountain this facility was built into had collapsed, to reveal a gigantic waterfall at the end of what I now knew was a large river and not a lake.
"Have you seen that, yet" I queried.
"No" the familiar math student had replied.
I couldn't get to the waterfall from where I was at and I wanted to get a closer look at it so, I went inside the facility to make my way over there. Inside, I found several round tables with middle-aged people sitting at them, enjoying dinner. This place looked to be some kind of giant restaurant/casino. I looked down and there was my stuff in a neat pile waiting for me. I picked up my wallet, my keys, my cell phone, and some other things I can't recall, right now. I walked towards the end of the room to get onto a walkway which would take me to the stairs leading down to the waterfall viewpoint.
When I got onto the path, I saw my mother, sitting at one of the small tables lining the side of the path. She had just been served a glass of what you might think is simply orange juice but, I know better. It was an alcoholic beverage and I felt the need to convey my disappointment in her decision. I asked how many she had so far and she informed me it was her "third one."
I took a large gulp of the screwdriver and set it down. "And your last one, ok?"
She said nothing and I moved on.
When I got to the end of the path, I approached the stairs to find my best friend that I grew up with from ages 6 to 18. His name is A.J. and he is a very large man. Large as in round and not as in physique. He, like most people his size, made up for his appearance by being a funny person and fun to hang out with. Anyway, I started walking down the stairs and he asked me...
"Have you seen Robert's shirt?" Robert being another childhood friend I grew up with; with whom I later pushed said friendship into awkward territory because of a threesome.
Robert was in plain sight about 100 yards away but I couldn't tell what shirt he was wearing. "No," I replied.
"It's got one of those alligators on it... you know the ones. Where the alligator practically says "Asshole."" He made a speaking motion with one of this hands while he placed the hand near his breast pocket. This was an allusion to a comedic joke that Robin Williams made in Live On Broadway.
(He'll talk about the shirt, eventually.)
Robert walked over to us as we got to the bottom of the stairs and said "What did he say about me?!" He seemed pretty angry for some reason. I informed him of what he said and Robert got a crazed look in his eye. He walked over to a fenced garden area and tore off his shirt, throwing it behind the fence. This was the last I saw of either of them.
I walked towards the waterfall only to find another set of stairs leading up to what was now the top of dam. So, the waterfall turned into a dam and I walked to the top of the dam on some stairs. How there came to be bombs on the dam was beyond me. I believe that Will Smith was there but I could be foggy on that detail.
Regardless, him and I had to defuse those bombs so he ran at an amazing rate to the other side of the dam and began defusing bombs from that direction and I began defusing the bombs closest to me. The method of defusing was similar to what was done with the bombs in Metal Gear Solid 2 in that I had to spray a sort of coolant on the mechanism to cause it to make a sort of "clicking" noise, indicating that I had defused it. I defused 4 or 5 bombs in this manner and approached the last bomb that I had to defuse.
This was much bigger than the other bombs but it looked like a car battery. I sprayed the coolant on it and it made the "clicking" noise the others had made but the timer was still going. Will Smith had caught up to me at this point and had asked me if I defused the bombs. I informed him what I had done and that I was having trouble with this last one. He told me "Well, do something about it!" I panicked and decided to pull the red wire off it's connection. Nothing happened and the timer was still going. I pulled the black wire off it's connection and the timer was still going. I thought that this would be enough to stop the bomb from detonating but, I wasn't sure. I ran towards the middle of the dam and by this time, the dam had turned into more of a stone bridge between two bodies of water.
Off one side were some people canoeing and I, along with my partner in bomb defusing, were about to jump off towards these people so we could be taken to safety when the bridge/dam exploded. However, nothing happened and I said that "It would have gone off, by now."
I walked back onto the bridge and a whole flood of people started walking towards us, celebrating our accomplishment of saving the day. Some music like "The Final Countdown" from Europe started playing...
...and I started running down the line of the people giving them all high-fives. Everyone was yelling and celebrating like we saved the world and then I saw my wife, Sarah, running up to me. She literally pounced on me and hugged me; giving me kisses to convey her happiness of the fact that I was alive.
We were lying on the ground and the dam, people, and Will Smith had all disappeared. It was dusk now and we were in the front yard of a house I didn't recognize. A tiny Jack Russel terrier puppy started running around frantically and Sarah gave me a look saying that it was ours now. I think Jack Russel terriers are cute...
...they're like that dog named Wishbone from the public broadcasting channel I'd watch when I was younger.
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All in all, it was the end to a rare dream that I have from time to time... you know, a "good" dream.
Nov 14
Dream 04
Ok, so I noted in Org chat that I had a dream that had Pricey in it... as far as I can recall, this is what happened:
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I was walking down the sidewalk, going in the same direction as the traffic... time was dusk and I was in town. I looked to my right and there was Pricey, sitting in a school desk. His desk was sitting in the yard outside of a building that was reminiscent of the architecture of my local Arby's. He looked up at me and met eyes with me before going back to whatever it was he was doing. It looked as if he was working on some papers of some sort.
I walked for a few more seconds before stopping to twiddle with a christmas light bulb that magically appeared in my hand. I tossed it far up into the air and it fell to the ground shattering into pieces. The amount of glass all over the ground made me think that the bulb had turned into a large glass bottle when it was in the air.
Pricey looked at me and said, "Well, are you going to pick that up?!" He seemed angry... I thought that it may be because he was worried about getting glass in the tires of his car that he adores. I shrugged and he walked over to me with a stern look. Nothing happened and he accompanied me as I walked towards a supermarket that looked like any other Wal-Mart I'd seen a million times before.
There were several other people with us at this point and we all went into the building. We were the only people there and that's all I can remember...
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I think we probably walked around but nothing of particular notability stands out in my memory. I just thought it was odd that Pricey was in my dream. I do look at the Member Pictures Thread every time a new post is made so, his image is engraved in my head since he likes to post pictures of himself, it seems.
Anyway, sorry to disappoint you if you were waiting to read about some kind of dream with sexually explicit content.
Not this entry, kiddies.
Sep 18
Work
So, yesterday's entry was emo-rific so I thought i'd get it off the top spot by talking about what I do for a living.
I work for a company called Designer Cards and we sell Realtor Reference Cards.
Here's our website: http://designercards.info/
Basically, I sit at my desk all day (at the computer desk on break) and make phone calls to companies all over the United States. The companies I call are all home improvement services like Roofing, Landscaping, Carpet Cleaning, Electricians, etc. etc. etc... I sell them ad space on the back of those cards. Talking to the real estate agents is not my responsibility but I have to talk about them and lie about how wonderful they are. The cost for the ad space is $495 dollars.
It's not physically exhausting but i'm mentally fatigued, all throughout the week. I no longer want to play online games because it involves talking on a mic. Since, I talk all day on the phone, the last thing I want to do when I get home is talk more.
I'm trying to get an education and move on to something else.
The only thing that makes this shit bareable is the people I work with. They're as crazy as I am and maybe, just maybe, just as lazy as me.
Break time's over...
Sep 17
Internet
www.GodHelpMePlease.com
www.Loldeath.com
www.deathclock.com
I would really like to get a lobotomy someday and just put together action figures in a factory somewhere.
That would be nice... feeling nothing. Just doing something with my time for the remainder of my life.
I hate feeling.
Blog.
Sep 11
Life: Meaning
Life: Meaning
The mind has plagued humanity since it's inception. Questions and choices stemming from our free will taking us down a path that has always made us wonder whether it was pre-destined or completely random.
I'm trailing off...
Disclaimer: This is about my own outlook on life and what I believe it is all about. This is the opinion of a 23 YEAR OLD male living in rural America. My outlook could possibly change in the future but mostly, my point of view has remained the same for the last third of my life.
Everything in life is so complex, it seems silly to try and explain any of it but, itt all boils down to one thing for me; love. I can hear the collective groans of the masses, now...
...but if you're still reading this then I appreciate it.
Love
Almost as complex as life, itself but, again, it comes down to something quite simple.
"To be forgotten, is worse than death" - Freya Crescent (fictional character)
People want to feel like they matter. There are billions of us on this rock and it's easy to feel overwhelmed or insignificant in this mad world. What does this have to do with love? Well, loving or being loved is a good way to feel needed and feel like you're affecting another person's life in a positive way. The person you love will remember you, at least and if you spawan more human beings, you can be remembered for generations to come. However, to be remembered is not the only reason to love.
We have an incredibly lengthy amount of time alotted to us and at the same time, it can pass you by like seconds on a clock. Again, it's simple... it feels better to love and be loved instead of being alone. Time may creep by slower when you're alone but, it certainly won't be any more enjoyable...
Only a handful of us will ever accomplish anything great that affects all of humanity in a positive way but every single one of us can experience the gift of love. I challenge anyone to tell me of anything that is even half as joyous as love and, at the same time, costs nothing.
Love is real to me. I can feel it. I can see it in an expression. I can hear it's words spoken. I know it's there.
As I mentioned before, life is so complex and it's silly to try and explain it all with every single variable taken into consideration but I don't feel as if there is anything else in life that could matter as much as love does. if there is no love, what is left? It's the best thing we can hope to happen to us in life.
Aug 28
Eric
Day 12
Deserted Island.
I'm still here...
Eric still isn't talking to me. All I did was disembowel him and use his lifeless body for sustenance. Why is he giving me the silent treatment?
...fuck you, Eric.
Love,
Toes
Jul 22
Spongebob Pajamas
"FEAR MY NEKKIDNESS!"
I wonder what Spongebob looks like naked? Well, I know what he looks like naked but that's what he looks like naked on a G-rated kids show. What does he look like naked... in an anime or hentai? Is there Spongebob pr0n out there that people create? Dare I google ye? Dare I?
Must resist. Must not type it. Must not google this. This pandora's box; I will not open.
Deities only know what sickening things i'll be exposed to if I type this phrase into my favorite search engine. The repurcussions of my actions would be too much to bare. This hero in many a child's eye would be tainted forever. My wife would never look at me the same way.
No... of course, I won't look at it. I have self control, now. It's taken years for things like this fall off my radar. Isn't it funny, though, that all this spawned me looking at Spongebob PJs that i'm wearing at this very moment? Is it a bad sign that my mind drifts off on tangents such as these?
Of course, I suppose the real question is; Spongebob pr0n, do YOU dare?
Jul 17
Wildfire
So, yeah, current events... there was a wildfire in my town, today.
There's a video at this link: http://www.kgw.com/news-local/stories/kgw_071608_news_i84_wildfire.60f92c77.html
Basically, I got to drive through that smoke on my way home before they closed down the freeway.
Anyway, that's really the first time i've seen a fire that big, in person/up close.
8:40 AM Jan 6