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| Topic Started: Aug 19 2008, 06:38 PM (260 Views) | |
| Solidcon | Aug 19 2008, 06:38 PM Post #1 |
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If anyone was wondering why haven't been showing up for two/three months is, well, my eating disorder has been getting worse. Ever since middle school I've been an on and off anorexic with the occasional binge/purge. Right now a friend I absolutely love is talking me through it. But the thing is while I'm telling her I'm getting better, I'm also not eating or purging behind her back. I know this is going to get worse because she's the only one who really knows how bad it's gotten and I don't think I really want help anymore. The only reason I addressed the problem is because I love her, but I don’t think even that’s enough motivation anymore. Also, sorry, I’ll try to be more active. Edited by Solidcon, Aug 19 2008, 06:39 PM.
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| wraith shadow | Aug 19 2008, 06:57 PM Post #2 |
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Thats rough....... Keep on trying to get through it. I stopped eating when I was depressed and that just about killed me. You can't give up. Eating disorders are hard to get over, you just need a strong will. Its perfectly excuseable for you to have left. Good luck Icon. Edited by wraith shadow, Aug 19 2008, 07:03 PM.
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| Nathan_snake | Aug 19 2008, 09:02 PM Post #3 |
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Keep trying. And don't give up, especially not on her. (Edited: Apologies, i should read things more) Edited by Nathan_snake, Aug 20 2008, 09:19 PM.
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| wraith shadow | Aug 19 2008, 09:12 PM Post #4 |
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Icon is a female......... |
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| The Departed | Aug 19 2008, 09:50 PM Post #5 |
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Look dude, the forum doesn't matter a fucking bit, don't worry about us, don't give a flying fuck about us. And don't look at it like, "Aww I gotta do this for her," no you absolutely fucking don't, you gotta do this for yourself, fuck this forum, you need to seek help, and if you won't take it from a friend, I promise you it will end with someone you know finding professional help for you. I nor anyone here can say one damn thing that will make your situation better, all we can do is acknowledge it and offer sorrow. But the God honest truth is if you keep at this, it will fuck with your head, I've seen this first hand, and anorexia gets ugly, and I don't just mean the people, I mean it can seriously do some psychological damage, which I'm sure it has started to by now, otherwise you wouldn't be puking out whatever food you've tried to eat. Your friend cares about you, and if you seriously don't think her love for you is enough to make you get better, than that's your problem, but I do however think all the health problems that are going to come from your anorexia just might push you in the right direction if you don't shape up, and if even those don't do it, than I'm sorry to have to say this, but you'd be pretty fucked then, wouldn't you. Don't bother trying to be active on a Goddamn video game internet forum, bother to eat something, bother to not destroy yourself man. There's really nothing any of us can say that will help, absolutely nothing. |
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| Otacon_Hal | Aug 19 2008, 10:23 PM Post #6 |
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My darling I had no idea you had a eatting disorder.... This fills me with sadness now, you are such a bright and vibrant girl and ohh so funny in the forums! Please try to break free from what I know is a self-perpetuating problem. I know you can come back from this if you have the right friends and guidance my flower, and if it seems too much then get help! Like there are here, I am certain there are helpgroups and support networks out there too. Just remember that this disease not only hurts you, but those around you. Please get well! |
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| Solidcon | Aug 19 2008, 10:48 PM Post #7 |
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Huh. I actually think I need your verbal kick-in-the-ass. Thank you.  @Otacon_Hal- F-flower? Anyway, thank you for your support, sorry I made you feel dissapointed. >///< |
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| Null | Aug 19 2008, 11:23 PM Post #8 |
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I think Keiv summed it up perfectly. What on earth posessed you to explain your absence on this forum is beyond me. Go seek professional help, not the opinions of people who are life inexperienced and at max mid 20's on a metal gear solid forum.
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| Viewer_Discretion | Aug 20 2008, 12:04 AM Post #9 |
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Sounds like depression to me. I pretty much didn't eat during high school. I only drink milk. Just be care full. Not eating makes you gain a ton of weight. I did. I lost it now, because I started eating more and I work full time. I'm too busy to think. If I don't eat I can't get thru the day. I do have to agree with null. If you feel It is a problem go talk to professionals The forum members may want to help but are not qualified. |
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| The Departed | Aug 20 2008, 12:17 AM Post #10 |
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I'll get Soriddo to take me out back and give me a hard verbal slap down if that helps? Look, take it or leave it however you will, my opinion shouldn't matter anyway, I'm some random dude on the net, I've never been in your position, as such I am of very little use to you. But sadly, neither have most people on this board. Like the others, all I can do is either acknowledge the problem and offer some form of unknowing opinion, or just offer condolenses. I understand posting on a forum, but I mean, the help should be saught elsewhere. Edited by The Departed, Aug 20 2008, 02:12 AM.
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| wraith shadow | Aug 20 2008, 02:50 AM Post #11 |
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isn't that a bit too affectionate for a forum  Anyways Icon, you just can't give up. I know it's hard to drop this kind of shit but you just can't give in. Theres really not much help you can get on a forum, just advice and my advice is to get proffesional help. I'm not one for "kick-in-the-ass" so I'm not going to use the word "fuck" every 3 words I should write The Departed's post again but censor it and them claim it as mine  On a more serious note, The Departed said it right (could have used "fuck" less) but it was right. When I was depressed, I just flat out lost my apetite. To be honest, I havn't completely gained it back. But as long as you have been doing it, it's gotta be destroying you. I lost about 10 pounds in 2 weeks (I ran every day), I can't even imagine whats going on with your phisical self let alone your emotional self. There is absolutely no reason to say sorry to a bunch of people you really don't know. Professional help is what you need. I know you "can't just eat" but you need to. You are going to get seriously hurt if you continue this. Take care. Edited by wraith shadow, Aug 20 2008, 03:00 AM.
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| The Black Devil Of Outer Heaven | Aug 20 2008, 03:49 AM Post #12 |
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Aww man Solidcon. That is pretty rough. Your awesome, and I hope that you find a reason to want to change. And for that shit, you really have to want it. So look for something. Props |
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| The Departed | Aug 20 2008, 04:41 AM Post #13 |
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In a whole two paragraphs, I only used fuck 6 times, thank you very much. Normally I don't swear that much, but sometimes it's used for emphasis. |
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| wraith shadow | Aug 20 2008, 04:28 PM Post #14 |
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You actually counted them  I just think being a bit more sincere (as far as choosing words) would work better but it seems if I am wrong.edit:NVM found it out. Edited by wraith shadow, Aug 20 2008, 04:31 PM.
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| The Departed | Aug 20 2008, 04:32 PM Post #15 |
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I don't know the exact word for it, but she said she has been purging, which means regurgitating meals after eating them, so I'm unsure. |
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| Comatoes | Aug 20 2008, 08:14 PM Post #16 |
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Bulimia nervosa - or being "bulimic." (buh-leem-ick) Someone very close to me has had this disorder... it's very damaging. From what i've seen, it can ruin the lining of your esophagus with stomach acid and can also fuck up your gag reflexe to point where you can't keep anything down... which is, of course, a big problem. Both of these eating disorders can weaken your immune system and will make you more susceptible to becoming ill. Anorexia/Bulimia is the beginning and salmonella poisoning could be next... maybe followed by months of diahrrea and recurring stomach problems for the remainder of your life. I'm having trouble with this same person, as a matter of fact, where they just don't want to eat anything because nothing sounds good... except Wheat Thins.  It's a tough situation but the only advice that I can give to you is to just love yourself first... you're the most important person in your life and your friend is important too but her presence should just be a small reason to remind yourself of what you'd miss in your life if this sickness were to escalate to point where it made her remove herself from your life or worse, remove yourself from your own life. All i'm saying is the end result of what you're doing is not good and you owe to it your friend and your future to take care of yourself. |
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| Otacon_Hal | Aug 20 2008, 09:33 PM Post #17 |
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You are my little flower dear...you just didn't know it  Darling I understand fully what you are going through, if you need any advise or maybe just a little pick-me-up chat, please PM/E-mail(If Im not on) me at any time you feel the need.  *High cheekboned smile* Edited by Otacon_Hal, Aug 20 2008, 09:34 PM.
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