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Doubting myself...; A LOT.
Topic Started: Sep 6 2008, 02:31 AM (127 Views)
glarbinator
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I've just realized the views and opinions I used to have as recent as a few months ago.

Before, I used to...

be a moral compass - now I'm DEFINITELY not.
be a very sheltered Christian - now I'm agnostic
believe in 9/11 conspiracy theories - now I hardly do
think I would never drink - now... well... eh. :P
want to be a graphic designer (since I was 10) - now I have no idea what I want to be

etc etc... and some other personal things.

Some of you that have been on this forum for a few years might know what I'm talking about... I've changed COMPLETELY since I first started posting here, just about 4 years ago.

I don't know... I've just found myself saying things that would've pissed my past self off, surely. Especially about religion...

I know that change is apart of growing up and maturing, but it's just frightens me that I pretty much hold none of the same values as I did growing up, and all the views I was so passionate (and touchy) about before are completely different. And now that I have to start making some big decisions, like what I'm going to study and what university I'm going to, I don't know if I trust myself to make any sort of decision for myself. :( I feel like I have no foundation and I'm sort of just drifting back and forth between completely different mindsets. Bleh.

I can only think of a few things that have stayed fairly constant in my life, like my friends (that's a blessing!) and my relationship with my sister... and the fact that I've liked the same guy since I was 9.

But, I know I won't be seeing my friends that much after graduating from high school in a few months, my sister has moved out (:(), and I've never had the guts to ask my friend out (I dunno... it seems wrong to me, as much as I like him).

But get me wrong, I LOOOVE life right now, but the future is coming on wayyyyyy to fast. :( I'm scared!

Edited by glarbinator, Sep 6 2008, 02:38 AM.
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You shouldn't doubt yourself. What you is just what you believe and if you believe that is right then go with it. We are all changing and that can't be stopped but you decide how you change.I recently looked at my original post and I realized how much I changed. You can't worry bout the future. We are all scared about something but you got to look past it and make your decisions.
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Self doubt is very important. It gives you a chance to take a step back and think about things more clearly. At your age I don't think you have much to worry about, and by that I mean worries about being different. It is something that comes naturally with age and at that age it is very common. You are practically going to start another life, going from the one you've known and been safe with for years (a close nit with family and friends) and now your becoming an adult and over the next few years you'll have a whole new world thrown down on your shoulder. So it is very important to be able to stop and think about things that are going on.

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Its natural. I'd say its the right time for you to start changing into who you will become in the future.
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God, the same as me. I'm 15, my opinions and views of things are constantly morphing, and this is my last year at school, compulsary education. I'm scared shitless about whats coming, and its coming way to fast.
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Feeling Completely Undermined.

I'm in the same situation, though I chose not to go to university, and now I'm job hunting for my first stage in a career, and a lot of the time I get too picky about which jobs I find to apply for, when I should be having a shot at them all.

Who knows, I may end up going to uni next year, anything can happen, I'm just relying on my interviews to go well.

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